Tuesday, March 11, 2003

Bye!


Well, folks, this is it. For now, at least - and possibly for good - this is the last entry on this here blog. Less than 20 visitors in the last month tells its own story. However, in the unlikely event that you like reading my inane babblings, I do skulk around other dark corners of the net:

Email - daveb75 (at) yahoo (dot) co (dot) uk
Note spamtraps - though I suspect even the harvesters have given up on this place!

FictionPress.Net - http://www.fictionpress.net/profile.php?userid=315214
This one is for original writing...

FanFiction.Net - http://www.fanfiction.net/profile.php?userid=315214
...and this is for Watership Down fanfic.

The WD Yahoo Group - http://groups.yahoo.com/group/watershipdown/
Over 12,000 messages! (No, not all from me!) Essential for all WD obsessives.

alt.lifestyle.furry - news:alt.lifestyle.furry (with a newsreader) or via Google Groups (on the web)
Usenet for furs

I suppose it's appropriate here to look back at how this blog changed over time - which was quite a lot considering its short life. When I started it in October, it was intended to be my primary outlet for Watership Down-related stuff; I'd only just discovered the Yahoo Group, and didn't realise how much fun it would be there. And the Bits'n'Bob-stones website was only a little thing - Frithaes! (my Lapine course) had yet to grow into the monster it is today!

Inevitably, the increasing use of my website and the Yahoo Group rather marginalised this blog, and so it became rather more like a normal blog, with bits and pieces of whatever came to mind. I stopped putting this address in the "URL" section of Guestbooks, and put the website's address instead. By this time, this was really only a clearing-house for ideas too vague and aimless even for me to publish elsewhere. The blog's days were numbered, but it still had one more task to perform - and one which has changed my life for good. ("Good" in both senses of the word.) Four short words will suffice:

I am a fur.

Obviously I'd known how much Watership Down affected me for years... but it wasn't until I read a lot more furry literature that I realised that the fact that the heroes were rabbits was so important in itself. I'm not the sort of fur who believes that they were a rabbit in a former life, or has a rabbit "power animal" or suchlike. Rather, I'm an "empathic fur" - someone who feels a deep, intense kinship with rabbits, beyond anything I can rationalise, to the extent that even the sight of the word is exhilarating and elating.

It's extraordinary, now I look back on it, that just three months ago I was confidently writing "I am certainly not a furry lifestyler" in a post on the WD Yahoo Group. Actually, it was reading through that post after I'd published it that triggered the "hmmm, I wonder, though" synapses. And to cut a long story short, here I am. Furry, and very, very, very happy to be so. I'm more at peace with myself than I can remember. So for that, blog, I owe you more than I can say.